The Joys of Being a Yo-Yo

[crazycatlady]

Bi Polar fun fun fun

One day happy, energetic, bouncing off walls and the next... sleeping and sad....

A literal life of being a yo yo....

Thankfully I have found some... SOME balance..... the low days don't happen as much and I seem to be leveling out after DECADES of battle with it....

If I have seemed tired lately it is due to physical pain, not the MI... It exhausts me to say the least.

I found an outlet as well, here online. I write and DJ and IRC Op... and I love my online life.

I am a bit agoraphobic.... I do NOT like going out much, but oddly I DO love road trips and hiking and places without people....

Maybe because so many have hurt me that I tend to stay away from real life interactions as much as possible....

I am a rapid cycling Bi Polar..... drove my Doc nuts too..... in one session I cycled several times and that was ON the meds he had prescribed.... needless to say he finally listened that those meds were not working lol

To my fellow yo-yo's, I luv u and we have to stick together because we GET us!

[Fern]

Hang in there, crazycatlady. I understand only too well. I'm an ultra rapid cycler, so they usually say I'm in a mixed state since I cycle so rapidly I can never pin down which extreme I'm experiencing at any length of time. Sure, sometimes it becomes obvious, but most often it's not.

It's this constant battle of extremes in my mind on top of the migraines and chronic physical pain that drives me now. To say the least, I have a lot of drive!

[CCB]

I can also relate to this all too well. I am either rapid cycling or in a mixed state. My moods usually overlap and I can't tell which end is up. It's like a manic depression or a depressed mania and sometimes I can tell which mood I'm in. It is exhausting and terrible. I was recently put on a medication (vraylar) that helps a lot with not cycling as far in either direction, though I do still cycle and experience my mixed states. It's just not as pronounced, which is nice.